Given my age you might think at first glance that this meant I was having a mid-life crisis. Although that may be possible, this actually refers to the internship selection process, which I have successfully completed. Let me explain...
First, the term "Middler" is one used by the seminary to denote a person who is in their second year of the MDiv program. This is preceded by the "Junior" year and followed by the "Intern" and "Senior" years. Do not ask me how or why these particular terms are used. they make no sense to me.
Second the internship selection process is one which creates a lot of angst, sleeplessness, and bouts of indecision. In addition there are feelings of wanting to support fellow seminarians, all the while knowing they are competing for some of the same intern sites. The process is one where a lot of paperwork needs to be filled out, sites to be looked at or reviewed, interviews with the pastors and internship committees of the prospective churches ( I knew of one person who had 10 interviews), six classes to be attended that explain the internship process, the selection of the top 4 sites that look most promising, and then the waiting ("Will I get my first choice?" "Will I get a site at all?"). All the while the folks at the seminary keep reiterating: "Trust the process!", which sounds a lot like Obi- Wan-Kanobi telling Luke to "Use the Force!"
Well the day finally came, and I know where I will be assigned next year. There is a medium size church (about the same size as Pilgrim Lutheran Church in Puyallup) in Dresser, Wisconsin that has been hosting interns for the last 20 years. As it is about 45 miles northeast of The Cities, I will be commuting there daily, starting in September. It looks like it will be a good site. There are no special programs, but rather it is a site that allows the intern to experience parish life on a day-by-day basis.
So endeth this "crisis". Now if I can just keep up with my homework!